Wednesday, July 25, 2007
hi all.
some things are really getting on my nerves. really.
let me tell u again.
when something happens, it's because of a misunderstanding.
and to that, there are often two perceptive to the story.
thats why its misleading.
cause u often dunno who to believe,
and the one who can solve this problem are the parties involved.
cause only they can tell wad really happened.
there are actually one side of the story,
but they wan to show that they are in the right,
so they twist the story around and exaggerate.
and its like crap la.
i hate that.
i hate playing the bad guy.
but if u dun, the person won't learn.
she will keep thinking that she did nothing wrong.
but its abit sad. the person will hate me for it.
yeah so? and i will admit i am still feeling bitter over wad happened.
and now everybody's back to normal.
they may be ready to forgive her this time,
but i dunno about next time.
meanwhile i on the other hand, find it hard to do it.
cause this is not the first time it happened.
it had happened lots of time already.
please la. for god's sake.
u can't have it both ways.
either u act like an angel or a devil.
u can't be both simultaneously u koe.
either u accept for who she is,
or tell her wad u think.
i am freaking damned by wad happened.
i wan to tell her wad i feel.
but i cant. cause its gonna fall on deaf ears.
cause she will just think i am being freaking bias,
and ignore wad i said. so wad AM i supposed to do?
yeah, we do complain and whine and all,
but wad can i do?
wad about u all? we all can do it, cause it won't be based on a 1 person account,
and its based to a testimony of many others who feel the same way.
but its not gonna happen.
i dunno why,
and hold on for a minute before u say something else.
u may start to be defensive,
to protect ur own pride.
but think it through.
i had had enough.
feeling really disappointed and upset.
and i am prepared to hear some nasty things behind my back.
but its okay. since i will be leaving soon. and never turn back.
i cherish the people around me.
try to give in to u people, but i have my own thinkings too.
u can't expect me to give in all the time.
i have my own future.
and i dunno whether the future includes u.
so i have to start thinking for myself.
i wanted to help u.
but u refused to let me help u,
so wad am i supposed to do?
ruin my life over u?
when i am still not sure whether we will still be friends, in wad? 10 years?
but if it weren't like tat, i can swear i will do anything.
we can just fool around with no boundaries between us, and i can just let it all out, and just have
fun. even if it mean getting punished.
if we were good friends, koe each other inside out, and koe that we can be depended on,
then its a different story.
u get my drift?
yeah. i am being mean. but i have learned something about u.
u koe karma?
the way u treat me, it will come back to u.
although i often say this, i still spare a thought for u people.
when i go quiet, its not because i am angry.
its because i am upset. and thinking.
thinking that i can't force u people to do things my way.
so in the end i still smile.
but now, who know how long i can keep on smiling.
my only means of support are the ones who stand by me,
who knows me inside out, who koe when i am feeling upset.
so good for me then.
maybe at the end of the day,
u people will win. cause wad u people will learn is more then i do.
and u people will always have happy times to think of, and at the same time gain things that i find hard to reach for.
so no matter wad, i will still wish u people sucess in wadeva u do!
Labels: sigh.
Link to this post?