finally. got to talk to him. but it wasn't a very nice one. couldn't stop crying.
***,
when will you listen? why do you like to assume all the time? does it mean that when i start working, i won't be able to stop working and go study? the point here is for me to work and save up money so that i can go to MDIS, to pursue a course in psychology.
i know that if i want you to pay, u won't want to. and so i make things easier for you. all i need you to do is agree. i don't need you to help me pay, not even a single cent. i just want your approval. is that so hard?
why are you so bend on making my life difficult? first, u said i didn't discuss with you. now that i did, you turn a deaf ear. for god's sake. this is my life! i can always turn my back against you. but i did not. despite of all the things you have done.
Mum told me i should fight for my own rights. but how am i suppose to go around doing that? tie you to the chair, hold a knife to your face and threaten you? or better still. chase me away from this house. you don't have to. i will leave by myself. just say it!
i still hold the slightest respect for you. but u just blew it away. how could you? HOW COULD U SAY THAT?!!! FREAKING BASTARD! IT DOESN'T MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I ASK MYSELF 'WHY'. CAUSE U ARE CRAZY. U GONE INSANE! THAT'S WHY.
When you witness a crime, the fact that you didn't go forward to stop the crime from happening, you are as good as the criminal him or herself.
(i saw this phrase in a book, long ago. but i keep remembering this few sentences. though nt exact. couldn't rmbr which book it came from.)
P.s-i am starting to find myself at a loss of words.
thanks to all who listened to me when i was down. your listening ear was good enough. thanks for being there. =)
